My First Blog Resurrected I remember reaching for her hand, but feeling her tell me she wants to go. I remember the family looking to the doctor for a glimps of hope, and found none. She was only 45 years old, and frankly that didn't give me much time to be with her. I often wonder if she KNEW how much I loved her. My sister and I were in many ways opposites. I was always the one front and center stage. Never one to be shy, I approached people easily, and would jump into life from enthusiastic angles no matter what twists or turns took place. My sister, was a bit more reserved, and sometimes struggled with feelings of inferiority. Her God given talents were not to be mine, nor where mine to be hers. Joni (my sister) had a beautiful voice and could sing passionately and there would be gaping onlookers who were amazed with her incredible voice. Me, I was never to hold a tune. Joni was able to draw in ways that only a gift from God would allow. I remember one day she doodled a self portrait that gave me the shivers. Her doodle was a duplicate of her exact features, with no mistake or slight corrections to her appearance. Joni was Joni Me, I can't draw a straight line. Joni loved camping, fishing, and out dorsey stuff. Me, I'll take a hotel with a toilet, tub and bed. Many things about our lifestyles were so different. Yet things about our personality's were the same. Since she was killed by a hit and run driver, I will make it my life's mission to change PA's hit and run laws. I know that if it was me who was struck, Joni (she was a fighter) would be wanting to do something, anything, to make this world a better place. My very first blog with Active Rain,was written in a frenzy. I look back at it now and see how crooked the pictures were, how raw my emotions were, and how I could barely contain them. Clicking the send button, I wondered if it would end up in active rain, or the Internet somewhere. I had a message and needed someone to hear it. Since my first blog I have been on a crusade and as Fall approaches I feel the need to rewrite, and keep aware the much needed changes that need to take place. |